A Comfortless mademoiselle
It was yet
another evening with sundown and cockshut ........ just woke up from my bed
after a small nap ...... I was lonely and I felt it deeply and
permanently........So I thought of having a walk at the fall of the day .....
so I drenched myself In my tracksuit ..... with my headphones hanging round my
neck n clutching my ears ..... just began to stare things all around
...........
As I was
departing on my way ...... unanticipatedly and without any
warning ....... my eyes got stuck over a girl . she was harnessed in her skirt and in dark top ......... I thought of
tuning out of her and to carry on with my walk .....
but as I took two steps in the middle of nowhere ..... I don't know what was it
........ but I ceased myself and came to a standstill .......
Suddenly I
took a bend to my left ...... and googled her ...... she was sitting on a bench
which was dismantled a bit ..... I endeavored a lot just to glance over her face
..... but I can hardly see her ...... because her face was enveloped with her hands n long hairs ..... she was
just sitting ideally with her face bend over to her knees ....... I was in the
field of vision which was illustrating me of her heartache and betrayal......
I don't know
why but she was going to cry....... but I knew that if I spoke to her or looked
at her too closely then the tears would fly out of her eyes and...... the sobs would
fly out of the throat and she'd cry for a week.”
I just
started to prompt what exactly must have taken effect........ I giggled 2-3 steps towards her ......
suddenly she removed her hands from her face and glided her hairs backwards
..... I was simply discontinued at my feet after seeing her face ........
her Moorish eyes were blood shot red .........
and her tears were simply tearing her apart ....... she just gave a wild stare
at me
so I thought
of moving aside a bit n just let her emotions bleed ...... because after all
they need to be yelled out ..........
From my
perception ......... she was visualizing of her crush ....... who was more like a
bad habit that she can't shake properly ..........................the hardest
thing I could have done was to try my hardest to get her over it."
......... but I thought of keeping the wheels unturned ........ n letting
things go as they are meant to be .......
After that i
was assuming of ...... what could be the 2nd reason behind it ...... but suddenly after
glancing at me she was pretending as if nothing has happened ...... but her
eyes told a different story ......
Teardrops
slowly started fall from her eyes again as I pretended to look at the
sky.........and I questioned myself how come life keeps passing on even if things r
clumsy around ...... I just wonder why
can't she escape this phase, is this her fate ............... To always be unhappy or how much longer she
must have to wait..........but I just don't feel like knowing myself very well right now,so how can
I be sure about anything about her........ but one think i was sure of was ...
“ Unhappiness can't stick in her soul
for too long because it was slicking
with her tears.” ......
then I
thought of moving on ....... and claiming things as they were ..... I wanted to
comfort her skillfully but didn't wanted
to make my presence to be a discomfort to her....... so decamping situation at that point
of road was the matchless alternative available ........ So i just moved away
from that bench ........ and marched my way ahead .... but during all the
course of time her cast and appearance was mirrored on my mind....
I went to
bed and woke in the middle of the night thinking I heard someone cry, thinking
I myself was weeping, and I felt my face and it was dry...... then i realized
it was raining outside
I wish I had
never met her because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was
someone like her out there.
“Why do
people have to be this lonely? What's the point of it all? Millions of people
in this world, all of them yearning, looking to others to satisfy them, yet
isolating themselves. Why? Was the earth put here just to nourish human
loneliness?”
"ANURAG RENFOLD"