I"M TIRED
As the days r passing on .... I
just keep on wondering ..... that all the best of my years are passing on .... and
still I'm thinking of what to do ..... its not like that my condition is worse
..... I'm going very much healthy with my current proceedings .... and I also know if I
go along with it .... I will do good in my life ....
But right now I'm in quite
disconcert with myself ..... because it assassinate me knowing that ...... I'm
going in action with something which is not lustful for me .... It feels like
having it all and still feeling sad
The worst part about my life in the
ongoing circumstances is that ..... I'm exasperated of everything going around
me ..... whether its my future , my passion , my stuffs or whatever it is
.... my life is kinda "meh" and as the days r passing on I'm feeling
shy as f**k with it
I'm 22 and I just
ponder on how the last three years had been a complete waste ... there's no one
who can walk with my train of thoughts .... I'm doing things that I don't like
just because of hasty scenario ..... but still I've to go through it just for
the sake of doing something ..... its just because I can't find a new one .....
I' tired of yelling at myself ....
I'm tired of telling myself one more day has passed , and you wasted it ....
I'm tired of living my life just for the sake of living ....... I'm tired of pretendung that I'm not jealous to some of my friends who are doing something worth
appreciating ...... I'm tired of putting tough faces most of the times
but I know key to feeling better is
doing something about it .......... but I don't feel or I don't have have the
energy........... but I know its just a matter of doing things continuously or
enough no. of times ..... and even if I don't feel it .... it surely will lead
me to a point when I start to feel more prominent about it ....
I'm not a suicidal or self-cutting type , but really I do feel tired . just tired
I'm not a suicidal or self-cutting type , but really I do feel tired . just tired
